Something within me felt frozen. I feel like something carved in stone. I'm stranded somewhere in a vast field of space...of emptiness that slowly creeps inside me. Something consuming the tiny amount of heat left in me, like a candle left outside in a mid-summer rain shower, fighting for its life...flickering in every drop...and then dying when there's already too much water to bare.
In life I know that there are those times that we thought of giving everything up. We were tired of everything, like all this time all we do is run without knowing where to go, we just keep running without any break, we were thirsty but we don’t have any water to drink, we wish it would rain so the heat in our body would evaporate, we want something to put in our starving stomachs. But none of them were available or one of them happened. We are exhausted in life’s cycle and we want a way out without coming in terms of death.
I myself once felt like dying. Ok I just want to make it clear that I’m not an EMO or anything near like those who loves to feel pain so they cut themselves… Gosh! I’m even tired of feeling pain, well not the kind of pain you feel when someone breaks your heart. That’s still too silly for me. Just the pain of broken promises, pain of losing someone I treasure the most and as well as pain of breaking my own ego... Damn!
I just want to forget everything, even just for a day_an hour_or for the least even just for a minute. I want to forget my low grades, my f***** gone to Him, and my incomplete life. Well, you may say i'm quite emotional but really I'm just being myself. This is me. This is my life.
Got a problem with that? Then you should haven't read my post in the first place...
-cee :3
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