Maybe..just..maybe

Okay I'm back dashboard. Well after waiting for about 28 hours, I finally got my hands on our internet. My brother is really something you know, when it comes to the internet, it's hard to talk him out of it. Addict. Anyway we don't have classes today, it's practically a holiday. I stayed at our house holed up in my room. Earphones on, with full volume, listening to my playlist. Out of the blue something popped out of my head. Questions. I was wondering, why are there things that are inevitable? Why can't we stop certain things from happening? Why do we choose to do things that we'll regret in the end? Why can't we turn back time? Why does people die? Where do they go? Does heaven and hell really exist? Why do we fall in love? What does love really mean? Why is there pain in our lives? Why am I wondering these things? Where are the answers in my questions? How long do I need before I accept the fact that my ****** is dead? How do I ever accept that I won't ever see him ever again? How? Damn! I want to bring back the time when he is still alive, when he is still here with me, when my family is still complete. I just want to tell him I'm sorry about everything I've said, about what I've done. But now it's too late. My deepest regrets for being such a hard-headed girl. Damn! I guess I'd just sleep these through, maybe when I wake up tomorrow he'll be alive. Maybe this is only a dream...no nightmare...yes just a nightmare. I'll wake up soon. I will wake up! I will...

Maybe I'm right. Maybe just maybe I'll wake up soon.         -cee ;3