I did my best but it just wasn't enough...

  I tried hard but i failed. I tried harder...still, i failed. Maybe when i give it a lesser effort, i won't fail anymore. Just maybe i'm too exhausted about everything that had happened with my life to even bother with my surroundings. I need a rest, a break in my life to be exact. Yet i know none of that exist. After that unfaithful day, my outlook in life changed dramatically. And honestly i don't know why...well i'm not really interested to know why. It's just probably what the so called destiny wrote for me and there's nothing for me to do but accept it...

  After that day i decided to just maybe for once...not to bother with my life too much. I acted carelessly. I became ignorant about the fact that he's gone. Wishing it was only a dream and at the right time i'll be able to wake up. I tried to run from reality...i ran hard...but reality came after me in just a short period of time. So i forced myself to just grasp it tightly. Still i wen't on with my own mini-vacation i called "A break in my life". I took school for granted...well not totally but i chose to take a break with life...and school is part of it. Now i have to face the consequences of my own actions head on. There's no backing out now... I've done whatever i did. Period.

  P.S. I'll try extra harder next time...and see what the outcome might be.

                                                                                                                         -cee...ü