Notes,

   Some things are hard to write about. After something happens to you, you go to write it down, and either you over dramatize it or underplay it, exaggerate the wrong parts or ignore the important ones. At any rate you never write it quite the way you want.

I hate...?

Being in love with someone is not a hindrance with having a best friend. Complicated things happen in our lives and none of us could really stop them. I believe that things fall apart so that certain things could fall together as well. 

Okay here I am again, mad at certain things that are happening in my life. She's closer to him than me. I even think She favors him more than me. Jealous, but okay that's life. THIS is my life. I just have to accept that I am wrong even though I am right. I am bad. I am conceited. I don't think about my future, or should I say I don't worry that much about it. I am ignorant. I am selfish. I am no good at all. Period! Because that's what She thinks about me! How could I even defend my side when the moment I open my mouth to start to speak She would block me out. Before I even explain things, I'm already wrong. Now can you tell me why would I even CARE AT ALL to prove myself when in the first place I'm already JUDGED! I'm so TIRED of fighting in a war, when I know I'm gonna lose anyway.

I just wanna disappear out of thin air, and never ever come back!

stare.read.think

The book I want for Christmas!

If you are in the mood to do some reading after the holiday rush, bestselling author Melissa de la Cruz is releasing Bloody Valentine, a Blue Bloods novella, on December 28. She tells Entertainment Weekly that Bloody Valentine will “detail Allegra and Stephen’s, Schuyler’s human father’s, love story. I was going to put that in Misguided Angel but it got too complicated; I had so many plots and had to move one out.” Her website says the novella has three love stories, including Schuyler and Jack’s.

Vampires have powers beyond human comprehension: strength that defies logic, speed that cannot be captured on film, the ability to shapeshift and more. But in matters of the heart, no one, not even the strikingly beautiful and outrageously wealthy Blue Bloods, has total control. In Bloody Valentine, bestselling author Melissa de la Cruz offers readers a new story about the love lives of their favorite vamps – the passion and heartache, the hope and devastation, the lust and longing. Combined with all the glitz, glamour, and mystery fans have come to expect, this is sure to be another huge hit in the Blue Bloods series.

Read more: BLOODY VALENTINE (Blue Bloods) by Melissa de la Cruz Book Trailer | Daemon's Books http://www.daemonsbooks.com/2010/12/17/bloody-valentine-blue-bloods-by-melissa-de-la-cruz-book-trailer/#ixzz18MlpZ5RZ

(I can't wait to buy this one!)

Maybe

maybe it was all a mistake

maybe you and me was only a fake

maybe there's nothing like cupid

maybe I've just been too stupid

maybe you're only telling a lie

maybe you don't even try

maybe you never wanted me from the start

maybe all these is just to break my heart

maybe I was only carried away

maybe you really want me to go away

maybe we never had a fight

maybe just maybe all these isn't right

-by "me and only me"

Denial

Days, months, years

I've shed these tears

Regrets chased me

I hope I can be free

My life is in prison

With an unreasonable reason

My past is holding me back

In these shades of black

These chains in my hands

I can't barely stand

Chains made of silver

It makes me shiver

Memories keep flashing in my head

I don't know where it led

Chances I've failed

letters I've never mailed

Words left unspoken

My heart's broken

With one last cry

I'll bid goodbye

To this past of mine

Hope I'll be fine

In this trial

Of my own denial

-by "me and only me"

DECLARATION OF PERFECTION

  I am not perfect. I live on the planet Earth where humans live. Humans aren't perfect. Never have been. Never will be. So I don't always wear the right clothes. And I don't always use the right shoes. My memory sometimes fails me. I don't look like a fashion model. I don't cook like a French chef. I don't always do what people expect of me. I want to fly though I don't have wings. I don't always perfect my exams. I choose the internet than my textbooks sometimes. I love blue but hates purple. My own ego sometimes hurts me. I'd rather be a loner than a popular *****. I am a girl. I am human. I am imperfect. But there is no one else like me in this whole wide world. I am unique. I am a miracle. I am ME.

;I want to know what's up there.

Buhay nga naman sa mundong ibabaw...

  Sometimes you just have to get away. Take a drive, go for a walk, anything, just to make you forget the pain. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spent angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. 

  In your life you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again, but you do... 

  I know we should live our lives to the fullest for we are only given one chance to live unless there is a miracle. But that thing rarely happens. So we shouldn't waste the opportunities that are given to us. Make a choice. Fail. Move on. Recover. Continue your life.

Think about these thoughts...

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Why does CUPID never grew up?

Because it symbolizes that LOVE never gets old.

And why does he throws arrows to the HEART?

To remind us that true love HURTS.

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I love photos, because the best thing about it is that

it never CHANGES

even when the person in it

DOES

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Bakit mo aasahan 

kung WALA na nga?

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Giving second chances is OKAY.

But giving third chances is STUPID.

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Late kana..

tapos nagmamadali kapa,

tapos yung driver ng jeep

magpapagasolina pa!!

-ay naku sarap

manapak!!!

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PAANO KA MAKAKA-MOVE ON KUNG

NAG-EEFFORT KA PARING

MAKITA AT MAKAUSAP SIYA.

TAPOS MAGREREKLAMO KANG

NASASAKTAN KA. TANGA.

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I wish SADNESS wasn't an emotion 

'cause I'll be a lot HAPPIER without it.

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"Eleven Hints for Life"

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.